I have had a few clients come to me disappointed with their healing session(s). They have not experienced relief in the way that they thought they would. And I understand. We all have our own journeys. I wish it was a cookie-cutter system so that I could say you will receive this, you will experience this, and this is the effect you will achieve. Unfortunately, the healing journey is as unique as you are.
I started my healing journey three decades ago and I used many different methods and techniques. I was healing from neglect, criticism and judgement, sexual abuse, and unworthiness. All these traumas were routed in my core programming from birth to seven years old. I could not manifest. I could not achieve. I could not find inner peace or happiness. And I could not have healthy romantic relationships.
The counseling or talk therapy did help me to forgive those who I needed to that helped me release victimization. However, I still could not find value or worth for myself, my gifts, or my talents. I also suffered a huge lack mentality around money that kept me in poverty consciousness. I was still a hot mess to put in mildly.
Not to mention, my relationships were a repeated pattern of attracting the broken narcissist who wanted my vibration, resources, and respectability for themselves. This patten would be repeated several times. Yes, it takes me a minute to figure out my own foibles.
. I did not know that there was another way to feel. I had never felt good about myself. I had never felt financially stable. I had never felt loved. I did not even know what I was missing out on because it had never been my experience. I did not know what I did not know.
My experience had always been helping others. Making sure that everyone around me had what they needed in every aspect. Often putting myself in a negative deficit: mentally, emotionally, physically, energetically, and financially. I was never able to bring myself into any abundance or sustain any abundance because of this self-defeating systemic pattern of survival mode.
My operating system had been survival. Only having enough or creating the scenario of “enough” by always giving too much for fear of not being able to be safe. Always having to prove my worth to others through the giving…whatever form that giving was in, but to give over and above what I had. Afraid to have reserve or more than enough…like something was wrong if I was stable. Every time bringing myself and my situation into instability, where my comfort zone was.
The one practice that brought me peace and happiness has been Surrender, letting go of the how and when something is going to manifest or show up in your life, whether it is time, money, people, or situations. I had to learn how to have absolute faith or belief. In Dolores Cannon’s The Convoluted Universe, Book Three, she states: “…what you believe is what makes the difference.”
It was what made all the difference for me. I started to believe that I would have what I needed when I needed it, and it appeared. I had to let go of the control and believe that I would be taken care of by my higher power. Not only were my needs met, but my energy healing effects were profoundly changing in my life. I believed the nine healing angels were a part of my session. I believed that the intention I set was being released and support was being integrated back in.
Almost overnight I was experiencing abundance without the fear of it being taken or feeling like I had to get rid of the ‘more than enough’ quantity for fear of being taken in some way. For years, I overspent, overate, indulged, gave, and did for others to my detriment. I was finally able to be comfortable with the more that was showing up in my life.
And this more also became a better caliber of people. My tribe was showing up. I was meeting people aligned with my values, outlook, sensitivity, willingness to do for others, and innate kindness. The people who criticized and judged me were falling away. I did not have to do anything overtly. They were no longer a match to my energy.
My belief in the Surrender practice coupled with my IET® healing journey was changing the landscape of my life. I was able to set boundaries where I needed to. I was able to recognize people for who they were, not the potential that I could see in them. And I could use “no” as a complete sentence without the fear of some kind of retribution.
Life is a journey… there is no destination, however now my life is filled with happiness in relationships, my career, family, and my purpose of being of service. I now enjoy spreading this message so that more people can find happiness from within that will be reflected in every aspect of their external experiences.
Melissa L Watkins is the Founder of Guidance311, and an Evidential Medium and energy healer with Integrated Energy Therapy® as a Master-Instructor Teacher she "focus(es) on optimizing your 12 Strand DNA, which can further enhance your wellness at all levels and increases spiritual synchronicities that open the doorways to your destiny." Sign up here to follow her blog and to work with her one-on-one.